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How it happened and then ...

Dreams, more and more dreams that contain fantasies that one desires and that has denied life, until now! It has taken over fifty years, it has evolved and matured, but inside there is a fantasy that is increasingly taking possession of one's possession and making one so conscious that the train of time flies past and over if you do not jump open now, it's too late, the only thing left to you is just the imagination!!! It's becoming more and more conscious and damned, now or never, you can take the helm and do whatever you imagine in your imagination to turn the hottest dreams, desires and fantasies into reality, you can do it, take all your courage together and start a life that is connected to your imagination and experience if your imagination really gives you what it has fooled you in many, endless dreams.

I was married, living in a relationship and now alone, but I never got what I wanted, or rather, what I wanted to try out to see if my imagination really gives me what she promises me. Yes, that should be my goal, to experience my fantasy in reality, a fantasy where many people say, oh no, for God's sake, but who knows how many would think that and would wish to experience it, but human beings Just do what the stream of life dictates to you and swim against the tide and if it's just a bit, no, that's not possible. Yes, these constraints have also managed that I have withheld my imagination for so long and only after so many experiences, finally found the courage to experience my imagination. I change everything!

On the thought I have often played through how it could be, what I would like to do and with whom, oh yes, I've already dreamed it with a lot of women, with women I have noticed in everyday life or even from television and each in the thought something else triggered with me. It always was when I fell asleep with the thought very exciting, but when I had a few times with the woman everything in the thought experienced in the dream, then the tension was gone and I was looking for a new dream partner. Will that be the same in reality? Like a player who wants to get the jackpot and then the game becomes uninteresting for him? Or does not the woman who triggers these feelings on me let me go? Questions that I could only experience through a real experience and then answer, that also makes it so exciting.

And already start the problems, how should I find a female being, who also has such dreams and even then the courage to experience them with me. There are so many things to consider.

The night of loneliness is over and the idea has grown, try it with an ad, but who will read it all and who will report and where should you meet and how should I explain to her my dreams, she will make me laugh, look stupid and disappear right away, it's complicated. In working life I have no problems with such decisions, I have to make daily decisions but when my heart comes into play, then it is crazy, there are always doubts, I always think that it is right, whether you are the woman which does good or perhaps hurt your heart. I just want to do everything right and with that I turn on the spot and can not decide. It's pretty hard to work with the heart. But without a heart, nothing works, right? No, all people are different and I have often thought, who has no heart lives better, no, not better, just easier and less complicated. But I'm just one of the people who can not turn off their hearts and honestly, they do not want to, because with heart it is just more fun, if often problems arise from it. But the time in which the heart gains the upper hand is the time it takes to have a heart and to feel and feel it. Unfortunately, these moments in my life have come too short, too short, better said, almost never appeared, only in my dreams, then the feelings have gathered and offered the solution to the feeling, but it is too little Now reality has to happen.

Newspaper or internet? If the ad is better ... no, but how am I supposed to write it? I'm looking for ... or I want to ... or do you want to experience something ... should I write my dreams? Yes, then the woman who reads it can already make friends with what I want or is that too early or then get in touch … . Oh yeah, that's hard, it's just an ad copy. Read more and everywhere on the Internet, a newspaper is too limited and if she comes from further afield, then no problem, she can live with me and ohhh that has fallen again with the door into the house? Maybe I should let me write the ad, no that's not my way, I have to do that myself, I can do that. So an ad on the internet, kept light and very open.

He is looking for you to experience hot erotic games where almost no limits can be found and where we both can try everything, everything can do, nothing has to! If you feel like it and are between 30 and 45 years young, then get in touch with me!

Oh, where should I give up this ad? No, I think it's better I sign up at any dating site. But at which, at a normal, where people want to get to know each other to stay together for life. No I think that would be the wrong one, because I do not want to find a partner for life, but a female being who wants to experience my dreams with me, maybe they are her or I can, when I speak with her, awaken interests, the She still did not know her, but she has to be flexible to want that.

Yes, if the very best would happen, you would find a life together and feel and try together for all the time and enjoy together until the end of our days. Never wake up alone, never dream again something that you can not tell anyone else, but you would merge into a single unit and enjoy life. Yes, what kind of person would not wish that and who would like to experience that with me, even if one would find such a female part, ah ...!

Well with my dreams it would be better I would sign up for an escapade portal, because the women who are reporting there are certainly open-minded, because they already have the courage to do something that not every woman would dare. Yes, that's the right place.

The dice have fallen and I want to register, yes my profile:

Gray haired fifties (not a fake!), Studying and now desiring to study life with you, I everything to try from A - Z, everything you can experience together and where the goal is to bring the feelings of the heart into the seventh heaven and maybe even higher, but you will see that! What do you mean, you want to experience the fireworks of emotions with me, maybe for just an hour or even a day, a week, a month or even ... well that's worth a try in your view, then email me and I will certainly report and try to win you for us, so you can start the emotional fireworks.

Well, I could work on it for hours, but the ad says I believe everything. I register and oh it will be unlocked in an hour, I'm excited, if even a woman will report. Yes, certainly, but the tension is there. I sit in front of the PC and wait for the activation and then on the first mail. A new phase of my life has begun! Pure excitement!!! How will it be? As a ping, a mail in my mailbox ...

Hooray! My first email, but somehow I expected something different. She sounds so professional and so cool. Well, do not hesitate to send a reply email.

That's it, I thought, there's a professional behind this mail, but that's exactly what I do not want, I've never been in a brothel or anything like that before. I think it belongs, no matter what the wishes are or the desire, always the heart to it. More or less, but completely without me it is not, an emotional world that triggers my heart must always resonate with something. So I have to email her, very carefully.

Ping! Oh, again something has landed in my mailbox. It's in itself really great, you sit at home on the PC and it comes in regularly mails, yes the technology! Open it.

Funny come because only these funny mails. I'm not looking for a professional. The mails sound somehow all the same and so cold, there's nothing over, just the feeling that she says the same price. No, I want something with a heart. Whether I signed in here wrong, I thought there were people like you and me.

Ping! Well, what is that again for a mail, am I right here, right?

Man oh man this mail is somehow different, more emotional, if you try to read between the lines, let's see who is behind it? Maybe a lonely creature with dreams and maybe even similar dreams, so be careful to email them so if it does, it will not scare you right away.

Is not it crazy, in the past you wrote letters and waited for days for an answer, today you write an e-mail and almost immediately an answer comes, clearly only if it is online, if it still is.

What does she do in the break, go to the ankle or get something to eat or just need a break to sort out her thoughts and feelings? Well just write my mail and then I'm just waiting for an answer.

Well, no answer, then I'll just write a dream mail, well an email in which I concretize my dreams something. And you started to scurry.

How can you be so excited just because you are waiting for an answer? It was just a simple mail. No is not true, was an informational. No is not true either, was a carefully formulated e-mail that should not stifle burgeoning feelings immediately by the wrong words. Correct an antestende sentimental mail. Oh man Paul your thoughts. Oh, she does not answer completely lost.

Man oh man, what was that, what did I write there and then these feelings, if I have with her these feelings, which I have also felt with her, then it could be the right thing to all my dreams and their dreams to experience in reality. Oh that would be like winning the lottery, no more, and she does not even live far away, that's only an hour's drive away. For such a woman, I would also drive to the end of the world. Off to the bathroom then immediately to bed and take her dream and yes I try to feel and experience it, let's see. Yes, I will do it.

Monday 02.09.2013

Music sounds, gets louder and louder, it does not exist, it can not be tomorrow yet. 8.00 and time to get up, it says the alarm clock, but whether I persuade myself or persuaded him to report again in an hour?

No, I'm up and down the PC driven up, let's see if a mail from her laughs at me. While the PC is driving up I am in the bathroom and clean the night away. Oh, that was one night and a dream, yes I really dreamed of her and what, it should never have ended. Man, how she looks, how she smells, how she feels, how she touches you, how she tastes, my thoughts are all about her, what more can it do?

All the things for breakfast on the tray, toast, cottage cheese, jam oh and the butter, grapes, coffee and coffee cream and off to the office, in front of the PC is always breakfast. If you live alone, what should you eat breakfast in the dining room, then you feel the loneliness no longer. I am a person who lives very much in the past, even if it was not beautiful, the present is dominated by loneliness and since I make my money on the stock market, I have no contacts in professional life. Office PC is the biggest part of my current life and there are plans for the future, but only plans, what are they if you can not share them with a loved one … . Oh finally, the PC is online, PO Box, 123 mails, just fly over, yes an email from her in the mailbox! And open ...

These words go down like oil what is Petra for a sensitive, emotional woman. She has certainly experienced a lot of bad things in life, but I can tell you more than enough, but you should not give up hope. It's unbelievable, yesterday I finally had the courage to post an ad and already found a woman with the same wavelength, oh I would have done it only earlier, but now it does not matter that's the past and now the future begins. I have nothing to lose, I can only win and why should not I be lucky in life?

If I maile her, maybe she sees at work in her mailbox and is happy, just as I was happy about her morning mail wow my feelings. I'm excited like the first date. Yes, I was sixteen years old and still think about it, one carries some memories forever in his heart or even in thought and then after so many years a woman just comes to life and you suddenly feel those already forgotten, died feelings again, as if they have never been away. Inconceivably!

Somehow I can not concentrate today, so rather do not risk anything on the stock market just check my emails, oh there are no fewer than five mails that relate to my listing. Funny, none reads like that of Petra, there was something and then what happened on the first day. I somehow have no desire to answer the other mails, but you can not do that, the mailers have indeed thought something and would like at least one answer. I owe that to them too. So read.

Well, what is she writing? This is like a profile, but there are no, but no feelings about who writes like that, certainly not fit to me and honestly I've already fallen in love with Petra a little, as it was said earlier, it is Love at first sight, today one certainly means, it is love from the first mail out! Haha, I am funny. But I do cancel.

I will just save this mail and always reply to all other incoming mails. I think that was sensitive enough not to frustrate another woman, that would be mean of me and so I'm just not.

3 hours, 180 minutes and 10,800 seconds. It sounds like a long time! Well, I'll probably drink a cappuccino and have a piece of cake. Today I leave everything in the house or should I, well, do the dishes from this morning away, just suck and ready.

Something to put the pool, but I have him in the house, no rather swim a lap, that clears the head. How about if she was here now and we would swim together? Would I manage that we would swim together without textile? Would I then succeed in maneuvering them on an air mattress, where I could then see them in all their nakedness and would I manage to kiss and caress them everywhere? Man Paul, but you also have thoughts again, what does she look like?

Does she like me too? I do not look so bad either, 190 cm high, 90 kg heavy (without ghost - smile) and uniformly brownish, with the gray hairs on my head and temples, the nonexistent beard and my ohhh not ... stiff, I could again. Only the thoughts of her make me sharp. Yes Paul, release your feelings, put on your bathing trunks, put them on the air mattress on the back, close your eyes, think about them and try to feel it when their hands slide down my body and massaging it down hard. Oh the water responds to my body twitches and spills on the air mattress, uiii cold but exciting, oh Petra please continue, if she would do so, the pool has 160 cm water depth, because she could certainly stand and her hands would have to reach me anywhere. Would she probably put a hand on my mouth or push under my ass, oh what would she do, what ... and the thoughts come to the climax simultaneously with my body. And now keep your eyes closed and just enjoy the waves under the mattress ...!

Will I say what happened this evening? We will see! Oh, that did so well, those feelings, how much I missed them. Huh, where is the clock, not that's too late ... haha this stupid idea. Hey, I feel kinda childish. But I'll stick that, you can believe that.

What you all think together, what the mind gets out of everything, if the body does it, of course, and vice versa.

Oh the clock. Ok. One more hour, well I'll take a shower and jump into the clothes and have something to drink and eat next to the Pc and then ... it gets as lively as yesterday or not, or more, oh stop thinking, enjoy it just as it is, it will all happen if it should be, I could also help something consciously, how can I just turn off my thoughts, they gush with infinitely many variations in me … .

Well send an evening opening email.

So now it's time to wait, I can not do anything else I'm as excited as on my first date. Not quite, mmmm but excited, not nervous just excited what is there on the screen with a lot of letters will light up ... wait ... wait ... wait … .

Just press the F5 key, it could be that the mailbox is not always updated immediately. There's nothing left of her, just delete all the other mails and wait.

Now the 4.5 hours are over. Nothing there yet! Well you dumbass, she can not be there for a second.

Her lips press firmly against mine and I close my eyes again and let myself fall, alas, if that would happen in reality! And then ... I feel something, even though she is not there, but her words in my mind have come so strong that I have developed real feelings and it's as if for a moment I would feel them next to me as if it really and just would happen. Madness!

And a pause in writing of the pleasurable silence follows on, we both now process each for themselves that lived together, an almost unimaginable event.

How can you get to know words in a person that you met on the Internet just a day ago, which means getting to know you, but somehow, it is indescribable, a familiarity develops and all inhibitions are dropped and the mind is switched off and off lift the heart up and let it go. There were out of him on all sides feelings, emotional moods, no emotional explosions emanated, no rushed out, as if they had been stretched for 100 years always, more and more and then in one fell swoop the gates were opened to shoot everything at once. But somehow I have the feeling that the emotions are accumulating in the heart again, with the joyous expectation, it will happen again soon and it is more than just beautiful, it is the madness that infects the whole body and lets it act as if he in bright turmoil, exploded into every corner of the body. And now follows the oh so pleasant relaxation slowly from the middle of the body to the outside everywhere begins to spread, a relaxation that takes the thoughts in the depths and abducts them to the land of dreams, happy fantasies and there … .

Write-free time for minutes, somehow a loud silence, because I think she will enjoy the feelings just as much as I do and she is certainly so surprised that something about such a distance, into which one can not look directly into the eyes, the other Feel, smell or touch, yes that was an orgasm triggered by brain fantasy. What is there, but that I can experience and feel that, is so incredibly great, I will not forget this session all my life. Does she feel that way?

No answer, oh she is still trapped in her emotional world, it is great, not only that I had an extravagant experience of a special kind, apparently also Petra. Is she a like-minded? Could she tell me about it? How she took the lead so easily, has not made any partner I knew. It takes a lot of self-assurance, you could become a partner. Oh no matter if she likes me, if not what then, I can or have already landed a tiny fishing hook with her. Man Paul stop thinking and doubting, let everything come to you, yes I know, you have experienced something you could not imagine. That there is such a thing, but do not cling or try to hold it at any cost, if it fits, then it will be, if not it has been the hottest experience of my life. Human brain hold your thoughts and think positively! Oh, if you could just turn off your head sometimes, it worked just fine, but if your heart goes back behind your head, then you do not want to let yourself be controlled. Oh just enjoy and come to me, unimaginable, yesterday an ad and then the luck comes, but nobody believes me when I tell it.

What was that for a day, off to bed, just before jumping into the cool water again and then enjoy the dream world and tomorrow, yes, that will be a special day, the day of the vote!

Thuesday 03.09.2013

Good morning, a much anticipated vote day. Whether it works, if someday tonight the mobile will sound his music and at the other end Petras voice is heard? Man, how to be excited about such an exciting event, what is the exciting event here, it is the event of the year, nonsense of life! I have never been able to play with a female being that has the same interests as me and feels that way. That would be like winning the lottery. Well, let's start a mail and make them aware of me, if she has forgotten me overnight.

And click, sent, oh that's great, now she's already with her, the mail. When will she open it? Ping! Oh, a mail from her, so early in the morning.

Election mood, yeah, she'll call me later, ah, I've done everything that does not bother me anymore or still needs to be done. Have a few hours, at least 7 hours to bridge. I go to the city again and buy food and go have some coffee. No, if she calls earlier, better I'll take a piece of cake with me and make a latte macchiato at home. Sounds good.

Funny, I can not calm down my thoughts, they just turn around Petra and her voice, how will she be, oh that's sure to blow me away. Well, I sit down before I pick up the phone, then I can not fall over. Thoughts you have, really batty. But somehow my heart starts to beat, of course faster than usual, that's the anticipation. I still remember my childhood when it was Christmas Eve and just before you got into the Christmas room to see the Christmas tree and of course the gifts underneath, but the moment of going out was the most beautiful and my heart beat up and now is it on its way again? Man Petra is not a Christmas tree, but the joy of her, that's what makes my heart beat faster. That I may experience something like this again, that is, I can not describe it properly, just fantastic, a joy that spreads in one.

A glance at the clock reveals that it's already 5:30 pm and that she can call at 6:00 pm. Well, already so late, ok Tassimo, brew latte macchiato, cake on the plate, cake fork, everything on the tray and off to the office. PC is on and waiting in expectant waiting position for the ringing of my life.