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Love

The "Greens" are no more bad-tempered
No hard-boiled organic eggs and snipped
celery in stainless steel Tupperware
The church calls their "little"Abuse now
"Harmonies, Peace, Joy and Cake",
similar to the "Warmwave",
China's dictatorship,
Placebo medicine effective,
Science non-existent
and School qualifications superfluous.

You may have seen my heart break,

to be kitten together afterwards,

but unfortunately,

that afterwards the same person did not become me,

that I once was.

You stand on the roof terrace

with a view from the top of your city,

but you have the whiskey bottle on your neck,

sucking in the whiskey like mother's milk,

you the one that does not notice

that little kid in you

your dungeon may not leave.

The city exercises power over people,

they have been looking forty years into the abyss,

but then overcomes panic,

not to set offspring in the world.

Being rich has nothing to do with cold business,

not to fall out of the clouds.

Who wants to know in what way through him

the stars shine brighter,

he must look into the hearts of those

who are walking down the street,

the creatives, the artists, the writers,

all the unpolished diamonds,

in whose breast an invincible flame warms the people.

My dad sent off his daughters for prominence.

He dreamed of once getting a medal and becoming a man to whom the world looked up.

But it turned out differently.

Today he is broke. He is under family supervision and is considered potentially dangerous. He fancied himself, none other than himself and his service to the weapon, would have brought the youth from the street.

But he ended up as a bitter old man, whose time has run out.

His only legacy was that he managed to divide the entire family to cover up the abuse of his daughter, and even with bribery to dissuade the son of her and make her an enemy.

But the corpses start to stink in his basement.

He did not make the bill with the host.

The good news, I never wanted to be my father's daughter, since I don't have the nice, hip feeling of being just the navel of the world, and I do not need to define myself exclusively against him.

Life is too valuable for scandals!

I campaigned for the election of a mayor in this city.

He is okay with me because he is a studied man, gender neutral, and acquired an understanding in education. He was also elected because he is a politician to touch. He describes public relations as having to do things out of habit, which usually have a certain notoriety. But in the sense of an inclusive thought, there are opportunities for joint public benefit events involving even the disabled in society.

I say that life is almost just an end that serves itself. The only thing missing was a comment in the Basic Law, which said that our culture and way of thinking gives meaning to life and to all its fellow citizens, in the same sense meaning a right to paid work for all.

Political work serves its purpose when inclusion - including the professional reintegration of disabled people - meets the notions of a city's values.

For this much has to be polished, finely spoken and shown.

And it has to be made clear that people who fall down once must be absorbed in humanity without borders. But the organization is a viable big business to make that clear.

People also just need time to understand their origins instead of just losing their minds or giving their lives away. It requires activity - talent - and the will to be challenged and involved in working life.

First came the trust

then the intelligence

we humans remained childlike

round, pink faces, small mouth

we bark like dogs bark

what wolves do only in their childhood

and our childlike curiosity

let us tolerantly and trustingly meet the environment

away from our wild relationship

we learned to trust each other

our youthful temperament first

taught us to solve our problems

becoming human occurs in human temperament

we did not become smart until we became social

first a friendly, open temperament

we keep like that of our children

which required strict rules and cooperation

that's how people captured the world

with curiosity and tolerability

and let us depend on bondage!

How to trust people

who just barehead at a young age?

Who managed to run fast on people

instead of pretending true interest?

Some believe that they know the weaknesses of others?

Because it's the only way to talk or believe

but compassion is not unselfish

if they go through the people,

who they call sub-humans.

But they have their own fears.

Where another knows more about life,

remained overplayed sensation left over.

Did they manipulate their own partners?

Everyone had to get to know the miserable misery.

Who just obviously gives himself a puny appearance

this is not enough to recognize complete inadequacy in other people

without asking the only question ...

How many times people left places?

To get there ...

to accept and feel accepted as human beings?

Jokingly, I often say 'I am' and only singularly describe it as 'me', finding everything else as interchangeable; at the same time individuals are simultaneous, unique and interchangeable, and only in its personal identity is the ego limited to a sum of Characteristics, such as reputation and appearance. Immaturity and mediocrity testify to how narrow-gauge the human being can be. If one sees the women's world chattering at the corners of their houses and tearing their mouths, it proves how they discernibly perceive their environment in anti-tortesian fashion - like a toddler who does not speak in front of a mirror. It perceives an infantile self in it and another, is at the same time a viewer and experiences its own spectacle, only that it does not actually really speak about it. Fast-paced, people rush past everyone, declare themselves to be a master race, and spit on others from above, crawling in their asses, but only when they mentally give them enough strength, and everyone knows, 'those who love me.' have made me what I am '.

Nature is not what is embodied by man.

He imagines himself to be as powerful and threatening like nature.

Nature can be an even more amazing role model if man did not believe alone the way to find her back.

Nature did not create art. Only art imitates nature and then it replaces nature in man, through his reflection on art.

An optical flow itself deceives a lot, and if every single human responded to all the stimuli differently.

If man alone often stands still.

He rarely learned the proper course to survive that he countered in the team, in a tremendous wave of nature not to go under.

Intuitively, the human knows about it

to follow simple rules, to work collectively.

In this way, people share their destiny and construct their own system because they live beyond the fate of living in a sophisticated communication, exist in a complex society, to learn from the groundbreaking genius of nature.

Who was it, that invented the stone ax?

He was still looking for a friend on the hunt.

Who ate only vegetables and became a predator?

He lived insensitive and unrelated and did not speak a word.

Who finally sat lazily by the fire only with the women?

Who remembered to love his dog in the pot for a while.

Who was fed up with mute hunting?

He realized that humans and dogs are similar.

All of a sudden the women spoke and began to talk.

He was attracted by the affection.

He invented the language and made fun with it.

He learned nevertheless to make the other a friend.

He invented a friend,

that seemed stupid to him

what he understood by slow people under profit optimization,

because unlimited happiness is not constant in growth.

And from then on he felt superior to the competitor.

Yes, they were just like wolves.

And from then on the wolves turned into pets.

And so they became social beings.

Someone breaks the friendship.

Small format with great effect.

The little bee unconscionable.

Blue tongue does and does what she wants.

Doing something that makes no sense.

Just let yourself go.

No matter how far.

No awe, gentleness, devotion, love.

Maybe to counter the team spirit.

Woman slipping into the male role.

To lose your humanity,

dismember without illusion

to abuse the children themselves.

Honest to yourself can be the courage to find his sense of humor after long years of maturity, and this person will perhaps even thank the one or the other with his gift. God or any protector who does not lead him from the path, help further. This way will only come to a successful conclusion, even if you definitely do not fall for faith. More and more scandals about abuse - and all such things are being brought to light, so that the simple sight of the church is only the dream of a faith and turns out to be a big fake. Like a premature and immature marriage, which is not permanent, and marrying is no longer in the interest of modern man. It is no longer the method to which the individual has to adapt. No, more planning and activity will intensify a life, and real life will be discovered, so the method will have to adapt more to the individuals.

The pope is also an atheist

he shits on worldwide 99 percent of all gods

and a little atheist like me

dispensed with just one more god

thank God, I didn't grow up religious

and thus renounce one God more than the pope

then to every one hundred percent

that is not crucial!

Social advances like democracy

Women's suffrage, reform education,

gender equality, social welfare, education for all -

Were initially enforced only against the will of the church

church today, which lacks credibility

today likes to withdraw its democratic fundamental rights

as a vest over and pretending to be for it

as if she always wanted progress to improve the image

after the scandal of professionally operated child maltreatment

and pedophilia to minors

in the south of the country chosen entirety of citizens

Christian parties in case of disagreements with the voters

and voters wonder no longer

that the disappointed only use their protest

their quarrel as several, small, Christian groups of lobbyists

actually deal with the party in a common pot

This can hardly be described as a voter protest or civic movement

where they dig their grave of participation themselves

if the party you choose determines everything

and election promises are not respected

they were better shipped to Egypt for asylum

if someone wants them at all!

I thought for a long time, I do not fit into a partnership

Nobody impressed me, to which I must adapt

I will not let myself be bent over for someone

know my right of existence and know

Such a relationship is not the basis to be happy

you do not have to build a temple around

where you have to hold me like a bird in a cage

Thirty years ago, I came here

not to understand the love between people

but to inspire me for life

based on the experience that I have become a master

I do not experience my energy as leaps and bounds

I do not ram the boys to the wall

and I do not wear the way in my character

to manipulate others to meet me

still to see how man makes everything clear

how he builds houses, and does great things

to be alone in love

too much strangers go too far

not to give up the role of the good girl

I thought for years, let others find their happiness in love

to find the right one, then to recognize

I can feel it again

I am bursting with strength and freedom is good

equality, unity, does exist!

There is an unstoppable power and drive inside you.

You like to keep calm and friendly, but pushed you will knock down anything and anyone!

Birthdays are always celebrating,

so to be asked without family.

Music has to shred and it's loud,

it must have been fun somehow.

Phrases do not coincide with reality,

good news and good will only sells well,

as long as the prospects persist,

that it does not matter how much further it will take.

Who does not attract happiness ...

Who does not love life ...

Who the charisma is worth like a hired companion,

he would recognize early in life, that his cart drove into the dirt.

In the middle class ship, it can be leaned back.

They only fuck to save the bite,

Watching and making the sex conditions.

Then people just have to tie up,

if it would be easier to use the cheese grater.

Amusement and constantly changing offers,

to cover the tears and live the crisis,

and yet only interchangeable for others,

as long as nobody brings up the issues.

Who wants to heal his own heart,

from now on, listen to the inner voice,

instead of letting people in,

which pull you down to their filth.

What does style have to do with being human?

What does it all make sense chained to fun-filled rides,

and only to lose yourself in it?

Blessings To Your Son and You!

My son has called me today, and he was very honest with me. He didn't talk with me in this honest way before. He was very near a crise and very sensible. I even didn't know about that. And he is real and cool handle with it, and explained me how he works it out, what does help, and what good people he has by his side making him strong. He would not try out medicine. Now he was so strong to tell his ways to survive with his mother, and I am very much proud of him. He has stress too, because this year he will finish his school. And he will follow his very own plans for future then!

He is thinking a lot. He is almost handling this out like me.

That is Good My Flower.

You can see how much we both need friends?

You haven't much time. But I won't beg to You.

Life is sometimes that I feel like a motherless child.

I ll always hope that my son will never feel like a child digged into a dark and deep deep hole, without the chance of getting out. He shall always have some strong and good friends like he has now, and I do too.

You are so far. I wanted to lie beside You in the night. I would like to fall a bit just into Your Arms.

Yes, I am just a little busy loved seeing your pics beautiful.

Yes and now You know I take less of that medicine pill, it is just the half of it now, but I take care of myself, last days were so good like I was on a top of selfawareness and contempt feeling. Now I see how my son had suffered the last years. Today my head is heavy and I don't want to go out into the rain.... do You want to know what I dreamed?

What?

Yes, listen .... I dreamed me see all those different characters I met in my life, like men, and women, all of them in their different types, most of them sick and weak people, and so many ...

then I saw me watch each person, and while I look at them I chose to wear for each one another dress in another color, nice long dresses .... And I knew that was just past, and these people never come closer to me again, it was just something like a

"Godd Bye"

Now I am very alone. But I have to say, it is okay.

Its some sort of a Vision Dream. Your not alone. You have me my flower.

I love You by my side. You breathe and You do smile.

I am always with you. I will Hold you in my arms and never let go.

Yes and my son does make through what I call examining life. Since You can play with me and my lust at night, I do sleep naked, and that makes me find to a much better sleep! Sorry, today I am just talking about myself.

Its ok.

You are so sweet.

While you sleep My spirit walks to you, watching you sleep.

I Feel your skin and I Kissed your forehead.

Makes me feel happy and beloved. When I lie at night I know You are there, when I wake in the morning. I love to see You asleep or once in a while I realize that You woke up early or even stay awake for long, then Your eyes stare at me, sitting here in the morning with my tea.

I am just a liveable like everybody else, but I am chosen by You!

My Queen

I Love You ------ Kisses to You. I ll take care not to hurt You anymore.

I Love You.

You make me feel much better again. How is Your weather in the North?

I heard You have big trouble with storm.

Now I drank a pot sage tea, and wear some sage parfume.

Weather Fine in the north, there's a Hurricane in the south.

I smell like nature Trees Plants Aloe.

I imagine it my Love.

It Heals My skin. Heals My Bones. Even..... Mud!

Yes, we have much Mud right now, it is raining much and is getting colder.

It rained here yesterday with Thunder storms and lightning.

I Felt every Bit of Natures wrath In My senses.

It is good to be alive. I remember the last years it's not easy anymore to buy those pretty Hippy-Parfumes like tree-smells, flower-smells, patchouli, sandlewood and those beautiful ones, ... and I keep these tiny little parfume bottles now thirty years and hold them like my Babies.

Lavender and sandlewood are My Favorite smells indeed You world knows.

My Present is there with you.

You are such a tall Wolf and I love You with all Your Smells. I was in trouble when I was the very first time in Your embrace, then I couldn't move off anymore, and it would rip off my heart seeing You move out the doors.

I wont leave you anymore. I want to be closer.

I would be a very demanding plant for you ... But I too must learn to handle Your own speech and This individual kind of a way to use Your words and That Will that Your use of language be.

You Make me smile when you say Those words. I am smiling.

So I think You making me much happier, .... later I will go and bake since long time a little cake in that wish You could taste a bit!

Your so lovely. I Kiss Your Belly.

I would love to Kiss Your Sweet Lips Embrace you in My Arms And Do It Over Again and again I Love You Truly and Infinity My Flower My Love My Queen my Heart.

Cake is bakin -

I made muffins with flower,

eggs, buttermilk

Vanilla and orange flavor

baking powder

some oil, sugar, jam, coconut and plums

Yummy

I ll make a pic of Your special muffin.

Do You want to talk or shall I take a shower?

Take your shower My Love.

Here I am back, fresh and clean. I am washing me with a black sope she has no parfume.

I can sense the Scent of you.

Yes? I hope so, and I am very much warm full of warm heat for You.

I am the same. How close you want me to be?

You are so lovely. I wanted to climb onto Your sweet Lap!

While im studying and speaking to you at the same time.

Uhhh yes I loved it so much even Your voice could make me flebbledipebble .... You could examine my mood, my senses, my smile.

I will indeed Ever I will.

While I would know there is my Man on his travel to my midpoint and he will win ....

I will Travel all the way downward.

upps

Kissing as I go.

If I was in Your bed we could be a bit louder ... sorry for the neighbour, but I wouldn't care. That's Your charme ... would make me a bit crazy hozy, love to touch Your hiney and I feel him seeminly grow.

I Like it.

Each time we became closer I exploded to Space!!

The cake is coolin now. I like that too.

I see when I look here right to the next house on the same height lives a Woman. She talks loud sometimes. Her window most time open day and night. She talks in American English and sometimes sounds like Danish.

But I still don't know which woman that is living in that house ....?

This cake is indeed my favorite.

I think it looks sexy with that one sexy plum in the middle and that yummie jam coming out of it.

Yes it does.

What You had for breakfast today my Love?

Just drunk Coffee. Didnt have anytime For food.

I start every morning with an apple, because i heard it when I was very small -

An Apple A Day Keeps The Doctor Away!

But I think it is not everybodies habit to cracker such an apple and to start the day with even the same noise ...

I have apple candle lit.

I have that candle lit in form of the moon and a peaceful face in it ...

I found him on the fleemarket.

I could show you my alter but no camara.

Excuse me what does that mean - alter - camara?

Its a personal space for my peace.

Yes everybody has is own space for changes.

Ah yes, I understood maybe You meant - Karma -

Are You again a bit frisky? I too have that little plum in my trousers.

I feel it tastes GOOD!

Giant wolf. He is indeed Hungry.

Yes, I believe You would teach me Your cookin well, Dearest!

I think you didn't get what I mean.

Yes, it is typical for a woman that she interpretes the other, but she doesn't get what she wants, but I am missing it!

Ok I will Say This Once. The Giant wolf Would Glady Love enjoy

To Swallow You whole Into his Tummy as his meal!

Funny thing that thing with Love! Sounds endless like Swallowing into a common future and end in the pot then ... might me an invention that thing with LOVE ---- by You ---- I d love it! If I would shower sometimes between every yummy meal ... You are invited to gladly Love and Enjoy my night time meal too, if You just know that I am climbing into my bed, because if I am lying naked, seems anyway that Your Are That close and I stay in peace for Your meal.

We Be wild in your bed. We be Like wolves in The woods.

Like our Kin Spirits.

Like Kids playing in the clouds on night sky under a lower wind up.

Moon shining and the cloud would travel us around the World!

Indeed

Love You much my Sweet!

I Love you.

It is still day outside. My doglady needs a walk, before sun is down. Excuse me please. We both dream of You. I Love You. I hope to hear from You soon my Love thanxx I will be missing You!

Ok My flower Have a Lovely Good Night and yes we will speak again.

I Love you infinity. I will miss you and Mable Too!

Frank, yesterday Your attention was helping me up again so much, thanks! Today I am balancing and I will soon find a new way for one new novel, I am just relaxing a bit and collect some views, then I compare people I know and their behaviours. There is so much more to see and love and share of honesty between You and Me ... that is how I see.

There's somethin' wrong with the world today. I don't know what it is. Something's wrong with our eyes. We're seein' things in a different way. And God knows it ain't his. It sure ain't no surprise. Livin' on the edge.

Good luck for! Good luck for? Now the gentleman from the south used his own stain. It is the thoroughly cheesy, backward-looking dustbin romance, like being whisked with a romantic or elegiac pigeon shit, but always paralyzed in slippery jubilation over the lost idyll. Most of them are always talking about the mysterious "earlier" and lament the uneventfulness and then, at free admission, two figures come to the organ concert, the woman with the hearing aid and the man from Berlin.

But You know my Love, that what I know about life since 1 1/2 years was found in our contact and communication like one whiskey after the next. You make me wiser!

The white man, can not harm me with his delusion. I do not think he has enough hair on the bag for that. Everyone is a flesh-and-blood person who projects onto the area just as I do. In the case where I compare people with others, that already starts from me evaluating others, and as long as I don't stop to allow myself to judge others who are strangers to me, I understand that everyone does it, that everyone prefers to look at the other, all evil, uncomfortable, actually horror-like, and yet it's a horror that everyone does on their own.

There is not him, the nice person who is so nice with everyone, as the most handsome one, who always knows how to entertain well, because I don't even want to know about HOW IT WORKS OTHERS SO GO, where not one would know, HOW IT IS ME!

You want to call yourself a great sage, little tiny white man. But you have a good talk. You are educated. You are grown-up. You are reflected. You have acquired all these life tricks and foreign knowledge. You can not survive with nothing in nothing. You will travel the world in years to come. Simply because you have the ability to move into unfamiliar terrain. You may be dealing with the truth, as if you feel justified in frightening others about the future and intimidating them with a doomsday that is about to come.

But you don't even know that every human being has his limits, and can not do anything about it, even if it stirs up your hatred, because you may have failed with the women, that not everyone lets you get on with it. With me you can't do your business, serve me your fairy tale, I see the wolf in sheep's clothing. By the way, on my part, I can bully back, I go to each strong and clear, and that makes me determined not proud, and who wants to come across me, he should get to know me!

Now I go to sleep. I Love You.

I Love Your words My Love. Your Truly a queen I Love You.

Sleep Well And Sweet Dreams Kisses and Hugs.

There lies a grey dark winter soup in the Air.

My dog and me, we both are relaxing that those nights are cooler again.

I am very proud to have You as a Friend! We know these feelings of long distance Love to us now for a while. But it's fine. Whatever it's okay.

We both learn from each other anyway. And words can be erotic I m sure You know what I mean ...!! I still sit here in that very small town near Denmark North Germany. My life before had many people passing, work tryings, alone educating, share with friends until today or quitting with those kinds of people who I was not confirm. All those people with their problems, weather poor or rich, they made me writing. Because if I should survive I need that pushing writing down my experiences with the young and the old, that helps me too and them who enjoy to take the time to read at a quiet moment and relax and stumble into my story far from the crowd and time wheels of everyday ...

These mountains of the North It's a pretty place You can be very proud of. As I wrote my first little novel, I described all my longing to British Colmbia. Later I let one young man decide to travel from here to New York Mountains and get to know to those nice people there. My own longings let people find to each other in my stories, no matter if women or men, if lovers or friends, if socialworkers or young adventurers, if old people or handicapped. But all of them collect the wisdom to find own life by freedom and everything in life takes time.

Sorry I can't send You my pics now, because that small camera strikes, never mind, You have a whole collecting anyway meanwhile.

Celebrate the people in your life who are there, because they love you for no other reason than because you are you.

Fuck Im angry This Word is such a Fuck! I usually see faults in Open Office after a year, but now you cannot upload a newer Open Office.

Before I had to smash down and delete the whole thing down to siro and install everything from new. So I must collect all 30-50 installeres and tribers on a stick. Then start a new. Sothat that computer allows me to install the new version of Open Office. That is such a lot of work and such a Fuck I say!! But that notebook was accepting all of it, so I have one computer that works... when there is need.

My flower relax i know tech is irratating hugs and kiss to you.

It is easy said not to get mad with tech.

My wheels are Turning Fast My Flower. I Need To Speak to You. I Cant Stop Thinking. Something Made Me Really Angry Today. I was angry and couldnt sleep.

Imagine it You are upset. It will need a while, then You will fall asleep and heal. Today Is Remembrance Day Here when The Two Towers Fell. Its a Very sad Day. I Still Remember The Time I woke up and saw Them Smoking and I wonder what was Going On.

Yes I remember many things too. But how can we exist, if we didn't accept, that Life is marching steadily into a kind of change, many old pictures seem to us, they would have been better times, but it is just an illusion.

I am just happy to be alive now. I don't mind any more what was. I must safe my instincts to live happy, sothat I will be able to contact other people that have other hard lifes too, but I have to care for my inner clearness and never forget to be honest to people. Then I can prove to be healthy and stay in my innerst wise.

So I can only say that You are in my mind.

And I ll give You hope as good as I can.

Okay I ll take a rest. Later I am again on. I am really tired. And I was really happy if You would like to talk to me again. See You later Babe.

I Love You. Your always On My Mind. I Feel You Kissing Me.

I ll give all those thousand Kisses You are missing from me ....

I care for my Love.

If there is Raven Eyes tellin that creatures awake in the nights.

If there is most of it happening what people fear. If there isn't any help to go through. So better stay at home make your place safe and laugh about it, that people run through night streets searching for the love of their lifes, when they hide in daylight behind the curtains just in fear of themselves and their wolfish hearts.

I know about people who have their Spiritual Animals.

Some say that Raven is their Spirit Animal and Bear and Wolf.