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CONTENTS

Cover
About the Book
About the Author
Also by John Burnside
Dedication
Title Page
Epigraph
The Beauties of Nature and the Wonders of the World We Live In
Abiding Memories of Christian Zeal
Sirens
Self Portrait as Blue Baby
Blue
Memories of a Non-existent Childhood
Mother as Script and Ideal
With the Discovery of Cosmic Background Radiation, My Brother Returns from the Hereafter as a Russian Cosmonaut
Still Life
Hendrick Avercamp: A Standing Man Watching a Skating Boy
Still Life with Feeding Snake
Anecdotal Accounts of the Last Northern Dynasty
Andrew Wyeth: Evening at Kuerners, 1970
Still Life with Lost Cosmonaut
Fatwa on Intimacy
George and the Dragon
First Exercise in Abandonment
Annunciation in Grey and Black
Approaching Sixty
Handfasting
A Dead Hare, in the Driveway at Over Kellie, 15th October 2015
An essay in sangfroid
Mistaken for a Unicorn
Sweetness
The Lazarus Taxa
Jean Siméon Chardin: Perdrix rouge morte, poire et collet sur une table de pierre, 1748
Pluviose
Crane-watching in Ostprignitz-Ruppin, November 2014
Confiteor
In Praise of Flight
Spring
Domestic Bliss
Some Anecdotal Notes on Sleep Disorders
Midwinter, 2013, Arncroach
To the Snow Queen
Poem on a Line of George Seferis
Acknowledgements
Copyright

About the Book

From our earliest childhood experiences, we learn to see the world as contested space: a battleground between received ideas, entrenched conventions and myriad Authorised Versions on the one hand, and new discoveries, terrible dangers, and everyday miracles on the other. As we grow, that world expands further, to include new species, lost continents, the realm of the dead and the lives of others: cosmonauts swim in distant space, unseen creatures pass through a garden at dusk; we are surrounded by delectable mysteries.

The question of this contested, liminal world sits at the centre of Still Life with Feeding Snake, whose poems live at the edge of loss, or on the cusp of epiphany, always seeking that brief instant of grace when we see what is before us, and not just what we expected to find. In ‘Approaching Sixty’, the poet watches as a woman unclasps her hair: ‘so the nape of her neck/is visible, slender and pale/for moments, before the spill/of light and russet/falls down to her waist’. This, like each poem in the book, becomes an essay in still life and a memento mori, illuminating transient experience with a profound clarity and a charged, sensual beauty.

About the Author

John Burnside is amongst the most acclaimed writers of his generation. His novels, short stories, poetry and memoirs have won numerous awards, including the Geoffrey Faber Memorial Prize, the Whitbread Poetry Award, the Encore Award and the Saltire Scottish Book of the Year. In 2011 he became only the second person to win both the Forward and T. S. Eliot Prizes for poetry for the same book, Black Cat Bone. In 2015 he was a judge for the Man Booker Prize. He is a Professor in the School of English at St Andrews University.

BY THE SAME AUTHOR

FICTION

The Dumb House

The Mercy Boys

Burning Elvis

The Locust Room

Living Nowhere

The Devil’s Footprints

Glister

A Summer of Drowning

Something Like Happy

Ashland & Vine

POETRY

The Hoop

Common Knowledge

Feast Days

The Myth of the Twin

Swimming in the Flood

A Normal Skin

The Asylum Dance

The Light Trap

The Good Neighbour

Selected Poems

Gift Songs

The Hunt in the Forest

Black Cat Bone

All One Breath

NON-FICTION

A Lie About My Father

Waking Up in Toytown

I Put a Spell on You

For Michael Krüger

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Si rectum cor tuum esset, tunc omnis creatura speculum vitæ et liber sanctæ doctrinæ esset.

Thomas à Kempis

What we do see depends mainly on what we look for.

John Lubbock      

THE BEAUTIES OF NATURE AND THE WONDERS OF THE WORLD WE LIVE IN

And Ananias went his way, and entered into the house; and putting his hands on him said, Brother Saul, the Lord, even Jesus, that appeared unto thee in the way as thou camest, hath sent me, that thou mightest receive thy sight, and be filled with the Holy Ghost.

Acts of the Apostles

I’m haunted by the story of a man

who, blind since birth,

was gifted with new sight, his surgeon

pointing out the things he’d only known

by name till then: the roses in a vase,

a window filled with light,

his daughter’s eyes.

One story says

it wasn’t what he’d hoped,

and later, in the house he’d thought so clean

and spacious – dirty now, and cramped –

the birds he used to feed seemed dull

and vulnerable to cats, the photograph

they told him was a portrait of his wife

so ugly, and unlike the voice he’d heard

for years, it seemed

the cruellest of deceits.

Sometimes, they would find him in a makeshift

blindfold, just to have the darkness back,

the world in scent and touch

and measured steps, a theatre of black

to match the black he loved

inside his head.

On moonless nights, he climbed up to the loft

and gazed into the sky above his house,

well-deep and still

and innocent of stars.

When Saul fell from his horse,

it would have seemed

a mishap, nothing more,

to those he rode with.

Some of his companions would have laughed,

then waited

till he got back on his feet

to crack a joke,

but when at last

he rose up from the earth,

he saw no man,

and, troubled now, they led him by the hand

into Damascus.

He lay down in the darkness of himself

three days and nights, then Ananias came

to make him whole

and fill him with the spirit;

but reading of his fall

in Bible class, I liked the man he was

when he was blind,

no longer sure that mastery is all,

still unconvinced

that God would take his side.

I had my doubts

on other matters, too,

mostly the presence of God

in all our lives,

like the five crates of free school milk

in the playground at break,

or the man who came round every week

to collect the insurance.

My mother would offer him tea

and a caramel wafer,

and he would decline, every time,

with a well-tried phrase,

like thanks all the same, or

I’ll have to be getting along.

God was like that, I thought,

though not so polite,

and it did me no good at all

when Sister Veronica

itemised all of the wonders that He had provided

everywhere, designed by His Own Hand.

No poem lovely

as a tree, she said

(though I’d never once thought to compare),

and how, in a world without God, could a boy like me

explain the complex beauty

of the eye?

When Saul was taken out

for execution,

he borrowed a shawl

from someone in the crowd

and covered his face, to have

one moment by himself

before the sword.

Did he whisper goodbye

to the earth, to its scents and winds,

or did he think forward to heaven

and wonder how much difference there is

between the play of sunlight in a stand

of fig-trees

and the light of the hereafter?

When death came

it cut through the flesh,

but left a perfect likeness of his face

indelibly imprinted in the shawl,

so when they held it up

the light shone through,

darkly, at first, like something seen through glass,

but later, when they leaned in,

clear as day.

Eventually, that blind man learned to see

a different world, the finer shades of rain

on stone or asphalt, market traders calling

back and forth, their lamps dimmed

one by one,

the last bus idling softly in its usual

circuit of gold and oil

on Union Road,

streamers of blue

and citrus blown through the scrawl

of blackened thorn around the drying green

where, now, the lines

are empty, office shirts

and blouses taken in

for days that pass like notes played on a scale

in music practice, fields of warmth and shade

ascending, as they must,

to aery nothing.